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I guess I overdid it the other day on the tractor, not feeling the best today.

A little at over a year ago, I had major surgery and they found my colon an my bladder were fused together. 

So now when I hurt, I think they have grown back together. And very likely to happen because once you have it adhesiens they tend to grow back. 

On a positive note, I have been asked to participate in a photo art show late this year.  I am sure I will ask opinions on which pictures to use.

We just got back from Wally world and I have a new headphone microphones system.  Therefore, I and dictating my blog to you.  This is so much damn easier than my trying to type.  It even spells better than I did I just have to learn to speak better.  The only problem is I must enunciate -Hey it picked that up.

Let’s try a recipe-

Oven fried chicken

Now I use skinless, boneless chicken breasts but you can use whatever piece you want.

In small bowl mix 1 cup buttermilk with of three shakes of Tabasco sauce.

Wash chicken pieces pat dry and place in this to marinate no more than 30 minutes.

In a plastic bag crush 2 cups corn flakes I also added 1/4 cup Gluten-Free flour (rice flour only) 1 teaspoon Paparika.

Dip chicken pieces in buttermilk then roll in  the cornflake flour mixture then place on cookie sheet which has been a lined with aluminum foil.  Salt and pepper to taste.  Bake in 350° oven for 45 minutes, or till done.

Today I slept till 11:00 did not feel well and knew we were going to the farm to work.

Boy did we work, ok, well LB did most everything, we also took the Grandson and he helped a lot. I taught him to ride the ATV and he had a blast- did not mind going to shed to get tools at all. 

I got to learn how to drive the Kubota- took to it like a duck to water, there is just nothing like running a big machine to feel way more powerful than woman on the ground.  LB will be happy next week, he will be able to have a big ole fire. He loves his fires.

So a good day was had – I slept, we worked and got lots of small trees, brush cleared for the guy to build the pond for the artisian overflow. That is slowing down to just one hose now but I am sure when it rains again it will get heavy again. We joke that when we get this pond built, the well will quit overflowing.

Hope not, if it does we will just pump water in the pond and wait for rain.

Night all, hope you have had a good one too.

Take your pick.. I that is my thought for day, it has been ok day- dealing with some of those pesky feelings and locked up thoughts. I have been told that taking them out and dealing with them a little at a time is kinda like picking awayat a scab.  I do have to say I think that it may be helping, at least I seem to be getting some coping skills or learning different ways of looking at choices I have made and changing my current thought process.   I made the best choices I could at the time. Looking back will not change anything.  I can either live in past decisions or chose to live in the moment. 

I am choosing to live in the moment, don’t get me wrong I am trying to deal with guilt etc from those choices I made. But this is now…

I also learned today that they have a description of all my worrying about something happening to LB.  It is called Anticipatory Grief.  I am making the decision that living thru it once may kill me and I honestly don’t know how I will but there is absolutely no reason to live thru it twice. So I am going to stop doing that.  We have the technical points taken care of and I know I will have to sell house within a year etc. so that is all set and the money issue has been dealt with already too. Therefore I am not going to stress about it anymore or at least when I start to I am going to tell myself that I can only live thru it once and to stop it.

Btw – the Stupid thing is not me or LB  but a thought for another day.

Well, it’s been HOT -over 100 out – so I just keep my little butt (OK, maybe not so little) but I keep it inside. So I have been researching Joomla or WordPress and diff hosting sites- Makes my head spin.

I know I have not been posting all those “feelings” I should be- its just hard to talk it all out which so far no one is reading or caring so it should be easier I guess.=lol

Dinner is in the oven and the oldest Gran or in my case Step Grandchild is coming over so I can help her do a budget.  Seems like odly enough she is one of the only ones who talks to me about personal stuff and man does it get personal sometimes. 

She has come to be like one of my own- only listens when she wants to.

Which I think we are all that way, no matter what age we are. Whether we have any common sense or not we always think we know what to do or who to ask and usually who we ask is a peer who probably does not know much more about it than we do.

If any of this dinner comes out real good I will post the recipes.  It is GF (Gluten Free) oven baked chicken and roasted potatoes and cherry crisp.  Cherry thing is for hubby cause I don’t do many fruits.  Give ME chocolate.

Buzzzz on a flower, originally uploaded by cbannon.

Ok, well this is a bee on a flower- duh BUT it is also my first foray into hooking up my photos to a blog- I figured it out- YAY it always takes me a while but sooner or later I get there. I won’t pop the 650.00 for a macro lens BUT I did buy the Kenko extension tubes and am very happy with them. I prob still need to get a better tripod, mine is a little wobbly.

I tend to take these bug and flower pictures, they don’t mind setting for me, they are there whenever I go over to the pond, however they are like kids in that if I talk they tend to fly away.

There are more GF mixes than you can shake a stick at and it is a very personal kinda thing cause when you can’t have the normal stuff you really want to get it as close as you can.  This is my mix that I use cup for cup for regular flour, I have had GREAT luck with it for all types of foods.

2 cups sorghum flour,  3 cups brown rice flour,  3 cups white rice flour,  2 cups tapioca flour, 2 cups potato starch,  1/2 cup ground flax seed,   /2 cup potato flour,  1/4 cup xanthan gum

Mix all together in LARGE and I do mean LARGE container and then store in fridge.

I use a small coffee grinder and I whiz instant potato flakes to make the potato flour, I also whiz -read grind the flax seed  ( I don’t care for the coarse stuff )

It is quite absurd to say that a man is good or bad- he is good and bad.

Elbert Hubbard

Sometimes my husband can be such an idiot, ass etc… Thank god it does not happen a lot or I might kill him.  Today was a perfect example he just came out of the blue with the most assine question, just really too stupid for words and this from a guy who has always been a player- he knows better.  Then as usual a few hours later he says some very nice things and my heart melts, I think he has always had that ability to make women happy with him even when he has been bad. I am sure it started with his mother. Now for the record our relationship is great 95% of the time – it’s the other 5% that is a PIA. That is way better odds than most so I am good with it. Besides he is just a man after all….. They just can’t help it-lol 

My hope and dream for all the kids in the family would be that they find happiness.

Happiness with themselves first and then a great relationship- A true soul mate match .

Personnally I am still working on the happy with myself part- at one time I thought I had it figured out, but now I am trying to find that person in the mirror again.  It has been suggested that I should learn to just “BE”  that we are a DOING society and that we are all having difficulty just BEING.  My mind will just not let me be, If anyone has any ideas on this please post them here.

Ok, they say do something for 30 days in a row and it will become a habit-   Hmm wonder if that works for sex??  Ok,  I digress but I intend to post for the 30 days to get into this habit.  Hope you are enjoying this so far cause its work for me- at least learning this bloggin stuff is- talking comes 2nd nature to me. 

I was jones’n for some chocolate tonight so I threw together a cake… Not a biggie I know but it has to be Gluten Free and and I only go for scratch so here is the recipe.  It started life as a normal regular flour recipe and all I have to do is use my Gluten Free flour to make it ok for me so not bad at all, as long as you have your flour mixed up ahead of time.

Buttermilk Brownies

2 cups flour                       2 cups sugar                          1/2 t. salt

Mix this together in your mixer or large bowl.

1 stick butter or oleo          1 cup water                            1/c cup cannola oil

1/4 cup cocoa

In saucepan bring these items to a boil and add to the dry mix, beat well, then add

1/2 cup buttermilk              2 eggs                1 t. soda           1t. vanilla

in the order listed, beat for about 1 minute – now you can stop here or like I did tonight I added 1/2 cup mini chocolate chips (because I did not have quite enough cocoa) 

Pour batter into a Pam’d large jelly roll pan and bake for about 25 minutes at 400 degrees

or till done.

Now after you bake this you may say well its great but its more like a sheet cake than brownies and you would be right but the recipe was named brownies…..

Now I don’t always frost this cake – it is yummy and moist just the way it is- UP TO YOU.