Take your pick.. I that is my thought for day, it has been ok day- dealing with some of those pesky feelings and locked up thoughts. I have been told that taking them out and dealing with them a little at a time is kinda like picking awayat a scab. I do have to say I think that it may be helping, at least I seem to be getting some coping skills or learning different ways of looking at choices I have made and changing my current thought process. I made the best choices I could at the time. Looking back will not change anything. I can either live in past decisions or chose to live in the moment.
I am choosing to live in the moment, don’t get me wrong I am trying to deal with guilt etc from those choices I made. But this is now…
I also learned today that they have a description of all my worrying about something happening to LB. It is called Anticipatory Grief. I am making the decision that living thru it once may kill me and I honestly don’t know how I will but there is absolutely no reason to live thru it twice. So I am going to stop doing that. We have the technical points taken care of and I know I will have to sell house within a year etc. so that is all set and the money issue has been dealt with already too. Therefore I am not going to stress about it anymore or at least when I start to I am going to tell myself that I can only live thru it once and to stop it.
Btw – the Stupid thing is not me or LB but a thought for another day.
