August 28, 2009
Well, here I thought I was doing better by investing in and making a full website, guess that was WRONG…
So, I will be posting mostly recipes and thoughts here while keeping the site- http://myrealisticlife.com , we will see how it goes.
Bottom line, Foodgawker and a few other sites will not post pics or even respond if you have a site, they only seem to like bloggers, we will see if this proves out over next month or so.
Besides, I DO have a crazy life-lol
August 9, 2008
I guess I overdid it the other day on the tractor, not feeling the best today.
A little at over a year ago, I had major surgery and they found my colon an my bladder were fused together.
So now when I hurt, I think they have grown back together. And very likely to happen because once you have it adhesiens they tend to grow back.
On a positive note, I have been asked to participate in a photo art show late this year. I am sure I will ask opinions on which pictures to use.
August 8, 2008
Today I slept till 11:00 did not feel well and knew we were going to the farm to work.
Boy did we work, ok, well LB did most everything, we also took the Grandson and he helped a lot. I taught him to ride the ATV and he had a blast- did not mind going to shed to get tools at all.
I got to learn how to drive the Kubota- took to it like a duck to water, there is just nothing like running a big machine to feel way more powerful than woman on the ground. LB will be happy next week, he will be able to have a big ole fire. He loves his fires.
So a good day was had – I slept, we worked and got lots of small trees, brush cleared for the guy to build the pond for the artisian overflow. That is slowing down to just one hose now but I am sure when it rains again it will get heavy again. We joke that when we get this pond built, the well will quit overflowing.
Hope not, if it does we will just pump water in the pond and wait for rain.
Night all, hope you have had a good one too.
August 7, 2008
Take your pick.. I that is my thought for day, it has been ok day- dealing with some of those pesky feelings and locked up thoughts. I have been told that taking them out and dealing with them a little at a time is kinda like picking awayat a scab. I do have to say I think that it may be helping, at least I seem to be getting some coping skills or learning different ways of looking at choices I have made and changing my current thought process. I made the best choices I could at the time. Looking back will not change anything. I can either live in past decisions or chose to live in the moment.
I am choosing to live in the moment, don’t get me wrong I am trying to deal with guilt etc from those choices I made. But this is now…
I also learned today that they have a description of all my worrying about something happening to LB. It is called Anticipatory Grief. I am making the decision that living thru it once may kill me and I honestly don’t know how I will but there is absolutely no reason to live thru it twice. So I am going to stop doing that. We have the technical points taken care of and I know I will have to sell house within a year etc. so that is all set and the money issue has been dealt with already too. Therefore I am not going to stress about it anymore or at least when I start to I am going to tell myself that I can only live thru it once and to stop it.
Btw – the Stupid thing is not me or LB but a thought for another day.
August 5, 2008
Well, it’s been HOT -over 100 out – so I just keep my little butt (OK, maybe not so little) but I keep it inside. So I have been researching Joomla or WordPress and diff hosting sites- Makes my head spin.
I know I have not been posting all those “feelings” I should be- its just hard to talk it all out which so far no one is reading or caring so it should be easier I guess.=lol
Dinner is in the oven and the oldest Gran or in my case Step Grandchild is coming over so I can help her do a budget. Seems like odly enough she is one of the only ones who talks to me about personal stuff and man does it get personal sometimes.
She has come to be like one of my own- only listens when she wants to.
Which I think we are all that way, no matter what age we are. Whether we have any common sense or not we always think we know what to do or who to ask and usually who we ask is a peer who probably does not know much more about it than we do.
If any of this dinner comes out real good I will post the recipes. It is GF (Gluten Free) oven baked chicken and roasted potatoes and cherry crisp. Cherry thing is for hubby cause I don’t do many fruits. Give ME chocolate.
August 3, 2008
Sometimes my husband can be such an idiot, ass etc… Thank god it does not happen a lot or I might kill him. Today was a perfect example he just came out of the blue with the most assine question, just really too stupid for words and this from a guy who has always been a player- he knows better. Then as usual a few hours later he says some very nice things and my heart melts, I think he has always had that ability to make women happy with him even when he has been bad. I am sure it started with his mother. Now for the record our relationship is great 95% of the time – it’s the other 5% that is a PIA. That is way better odds than most so I am good with it. Besides he is just a man after all….. They just can’t help it-lol
My hope and dream for all the kids in the family would be that they find happiness.
Happiness with themselves first and then a great relationship- A true soul mate match .
Personnally I am still working on the happy with myself part- at one time I thought I had it figured out, but now I am trying to find that person in the mirror again. It has been suggested that I should learn to just “BE” that we are a DOING society and that we are all having difficulty just BEING. My mind will just not let me be, If anyone has any ideas on this please post them here.
August 1, 2008
I told you there would be pics from time to time. For whatever reason I am into bugs right now. Perhaps because unlike children they are there, no posing etc. I do find that if I start talking to them they fly off-lol
This is just the start of many you will see. It has been a so so day, a little issue or 2 with hubby but it all got smoothed out- bless his soul he trys really hard, but some things are just hard to change after decades. Lindsey came for dinner and we all had a nice visit. Tommorrow we are off to the farm and I will get to try out my new lens I bought today, so look for more bugs..
July 31, 2008
I have a crazy life, one that I am trying to make sense of. Trying to learn to “be“ more on all that as we go.
I will be posting pics, gluten free recipes and normal tried and true recipes. I will also be putting up random thoughts and questions. I have numerous chronic illnesses that have shaped my life to this point. I also have TONS of useful or useless info in my brain. It’s not doing anybody any good up there so I am going to share-lol
You are born at point A and die at point B,
what you do in between is LIFE.
Stop by when you can and peek into my crazy life- may be yours is crazy too.
July 31, 2008
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